- Flux Magazine
Poem by Abel Avalos
Connections are made at the atomic level
the subconscious makes, breaks, and controls chemical bonding
Impulse and instincts become calculated interactions
subcutaneous decisions under the surface
Is it worth it are we worthless?
This some earth shit
terraforming with the masses, serotonin, cytokinesis physical neurosis all consuming
transmittal with this gender nonconformist, noncommittal - pro reformist
Chops that snap back with this hemotosis;
oxygen back in my lungs shwacked dumb with an emotional rollercoaster, the abyss that’s never ending
connective tissue remiss of our relationship pending
How did you rid yourself of these self-fulfilling prophecies?
Remove my higher self from mental aristocracy,
Surrounded by these walls can’t show insecurity
My souls biosecurity is when the cortisol hits
Forgetfulness, guilt trips
reconstructed justice in our healing metamorphosis
My unrecognized devotion to rooted change
Endure your burning waxes, transmitted Baptist’s epiphany of gods words spoken so timidly
The writings were always scripture
Wasn't love always handwritten
I keep struggling with this imagery
In recovery, summoning the strength to continue on this journey of self discovery